Does God ever ask you to
do strange things? Uncomfortable things? Inexplicable things? He does to me. I
remember arguing with God in an English class about a goth girl he wanted me to
talk to. He didn't really know what he was asking, did he? He didn't realize
that this girl wanted nothing to do with this blonde girl dressed in pink and
khaki. I remember other instances like that too. But you know, God was always
right. So I've gotten in the habit of accepting what he says even if it feels
totally off the wall. I thought I'd gotten used to his requests for me to talk
to strangers, ask hard questions, and share honestly of my life. Then he told
me to pray for Nicki Minaj.
Most of you probably
don't have a clue who she is. And honestly, I don't know much either. I watched
her briefly as a judge on American Idol and my friend Robin said she might be
demon possessed. She's definitely odd with her hats and colored wigs and
clamoring for attention. I didn't give her a second thought then. But several
days ago I was researching and thinking about freedom and how the truth sets free and how lies are a
prison. It all makes sense in my head
and as I was working through the many facets I came across her song
"Freedom" which I cannot recommend because the lyrics are rather
explicit.
But her song made me cry.
It wasn't supposed to. She didn't write it to do that. Suddenly I had a new
vision of this young woman as she sang and rapped. The verses are all about how
trapped she is by the expectations of others, by her own pride, by her
comparisons of herself to a savior figure. Then the hook is all about how she
feels free... she feels freedom. But the melody is so mournful. The combination
is heartbreaking. She seems to be grasping for freedom so desperately and yet
doesn't know where to find it. I am so blessed to have found true freedom!
And as I pitied her,
grieved for her, God said, Why don't you pray for her? And again I was
surprised by God's request. It feels silly to pray for someone so far off, so
removed from anything in my life. But is it really any different from praying
for the President? For foreign rulers? Do I really think that God's arm is so short
that he cannot use my prayers in the life of this sad woman? Of course not!
So, I pray. I wait. I
wonder if I'll ever see what God is doing in her life, because I have no doubts
that he's doing something.
1 comment:
"So I've gotten in the habit of accepting what he says even if it feels totally off the wall." That's awesome. :-) PTL for how He has, how He is, and however He is going to work through you, my new friend! :)
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