Monday, September 24, 2012

Another Monday


Some days it takes every last ounce of strength to get out of bed.

Glowing sunshine, mist rising off fields, and the crisp beginnings of fall can alleviate some of the deadness of heart. The smell of a hazelnut candle and the patterns of sunshine on the pale carpet can reach in to touch the life that is buried inside somewhere. But quiet cold rooms and redoing work that was done once before can be a fierce wind on that little spark of motivation. 
What's the point of even trying? 
And I realize that that is just another one of the lies.

Questions plague me about where to go to church, which jobs to do, who to make friends with, what to even do with my afternoons and evenings... and I am pushed and pulled in a hundred directions and feel like I wish the world would shut up and hold still...
just        for       a        moment.

And I raise my arms like Moses did, but while the time moves on 
I am left reaching for God. 

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Thankfulness

I have kept putting off posting my thankful list for several reasons. First, it's all over the place and I haven't consolidated it well. Second, I kept thinking I wanted to post it on a Monday so I could link over to A Holy Experience. But, alas, neither of these things seems like it will work out for now. So I'm posting it here, today, unlinked and incomplete, but at least posted. 

847. Memories of beaches
848. Rosy-fingered dawn
849. End of vacation comes quickly
850. Saticoy girls
851. Psalm 42-43, how good, how much I want God
852. I begin to see the end of this down time
853. Job possibilities
854. Bible Studies
855. 2+ hour phone calls with friends
856. Molly's choices made with peace
857. My brother is here
858. Sister is coming
859. White wine sangria
860. Sharlee
861. Prayers that are perfect
862. Feeling lonely
863. The tan man
864. Boxes covered in pretty paper
865. New tennis shoes
866. Patsi
867. Walks with friends
868. Little boys
869. Showers
870. Lotion
871. Writing new things
872. So much blessing I can barely stand it 
873. New roommates
874. A beautiful house
875. A piano
876. More than one job
877. Realizing I'm a mess
878. Being ok with being a mess
879. Dave liking the candy machine
880. Breakfast with friends
881. Today began fall... weather-wise

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Magnetic Make Up Board

So, somehow I came across this blogsite... http://laurathoughts81.blogspot.com/2011/03/make-up-magnet-board.html

I was inspired.


So I bought a metal pan, some fabric, some magnets, and a glue gun. And I put this up! It was fun to have a useful craft project.

Friday, September 07, 2012

I do know that waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty,
to carry within oneself the unanswered question, 
lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one's thoughts. 
--Elizabeth Elliot--